Why Do I Do This?

Why do I write this blog every day? Sometimes I ask myself the same question, but ultimately I know my story can help other men and women suffering from depression and alcoholism. In addition, there seems to be a stigma about women alcoholics that doesn’t exist for men, so I think women hesitate to seek help because of that. The common belief is that soccer moms don’t drink. The reality is: YES WE DO – we just do it in our closets and would rather die than have people find out we aren’t the Perfect People we want them to believe we are. Case in point, when I left rehab I tried to find organizations with women like me who have substance abuse problems. Since I met a sorority sister in rehab, one of the first places I looked was to the Panhellenic (Greek women’s group) Council. I was surprised that they do indeed have programs to support women with substance abuse problems, and you could write a check to help THOSE WOMEN (inner-city, real live drunks). But there was no resource for sorority members (since, you know, we’re all perfect ladies and would never have a substance abuse problem). I am rolling my eyes as I type.
So that’s why I do this. If you read that even a messed-up person such as myself can live through rehab and recovery, maybe it will give you the courage to do it yourself. The first step is putting down the wine, ladies!
Oh yeah, I also write to take jabs at old boyfriends and others who have offended me over the years, but that’s just a perk of blogging.